Have You Ever Loved Someone So Much it Made You Cry?

A line from a popular Brandy hit called, Have You Ever?

The reason for the emo, is a whom I thought was a near and dear friend, informed me that Ive been ignored and shunned because they do not see me as near nor dear... for a few heart breaking reasons. For the sake of the person I will not go into to much detail, because despite what they said, I did and still do care dearly and deeply for them.

I will share one, the one that was a blatant attack on my character. As a youth leader, I do my best to be a positive influence on my youth, and I'd like to think Im a pretty consistant person. I Don't try to be one person at youth, and another at home, or with my friends. As a friend, I know I'm not perfect, but I am the kind of friend who leaves her cell phone on all night, just incase your stranded and need a ride, or something happened to someone dear to youand u need an ear, or you just plan well need to hug it out. I'd like to think Im the kind of person my friends open up to, not out of obligation or whim, but out of trust. Am I really not any of these things? Was I just fooling myself?

All I've ever done was try to support you in the way you needed. But you were never really all that clear in what that was. I was often told contradictory tales, but I did the best I could. I've always loved you, from the bottom of my heart. At one point, you were my nearest and dearest. You know who, knew it too.. But I guess you never really trusted me, I guess you never fully excepted my friendship... just a grain in the sand of time. I will never live up to the mirage you made me into, I wouldn't even know where to start. So here's to hoping you realize that all I wanted for you was happiness. I never ment to make you think you had to be one way, and label you as such.

I am truely sorry that I hurt you.